And Just Like That

This past week of camp has been one of the most spiritually and emotionally draining weeks of my life. One-on-one's and a million questions flooded our cabin each day and night. However, I wouldn't trade this week for anything in the world. This week I have seen myself and the other counselors grow in faith, love and wisdom. 

To start out: my girls were amazing. They had the biggest hearts for each other and God that I have ever seen. It was amazing to see how God perfectly hand picked each camper for their counselor, and how God uses us as His vessels. 

When I applied I knew there would be brokenness and heavy pasts, but I could have never imagined that I would see the brokenness and pain that I saw this week. Satan was fighting hard in the hearts this week, but in that God was fighting even harder. We had the privilege to see hearts soften to His truth and eyes open to His glory. 

One of the sweetest moments of the week was during one the the God & I times. I told my girls to get their booklets and meet me by the lake, but I had to go get someone so I wasn't there on time. But when I rounded the corner I saw my girls sitting together by the lake already in the word. I didn't have to plea or beg, they just did. Like Psalm 42:1-2 says, "As the deer pants for streams of water, so my soul pants for you, my God. My soul thirsts for God, for the living God. When can I go and meet with God?" My girls thirsted for God, and that to me was sweeter than honey.

This summer we are talking about the fall, and how God showed His mercy even in the rebellious hearts of Adam and Eve. We talked about how God had every right as a just God to kill them for their sin, but He gave them a second chance to turn back to Him. We talked about how God made pain in child birth, but how in His mercy allowed Eve to bear children. And we talked about how God made planting hard, but still allowed them food to live. We got to see His hand over each of us as He passed His mercy down from generation to generation. And for some, it finally clicked. 

It's beautiful to see how God takes broken people to reach out to their broken people. We, as counselors, are broken people made whole in our God and King and though we want to see our broken campers made whole through Christ, He wants it much more. God longs for His children to come home and none of that is through our cool (or hot... Really really hot cabins) but it's through the One who breathed the breath of life into us so we can breathe back His sovereign words. His sovereign truth and remind them of His sovereign love.

And just like that the week is over. 

Lord, 

Empty me of myself so I can be filled with You. Humble my heart & give me grace to do Your will with a servants heart. Give me a greater understanding of who You are so that I will have the wisdom to those who don't know who You are or want to know You deeper. Thank you for entrusting me with this mission.

Amen.